i cant handle this;

what the hell is your problem? you are always causing shit! i am so sick of you and your crap. please just give me a break.

My quote of the day;

 

A friend is someone whos knows the song of your heart.

And sings it back to you when you have forgotten the words.

i hate what we have become.

now when we see each other. all we have to talk about is someone else. it never used to be like that. its almost like we have to bitch about someone else to make the conversation less awkward. i hate what we have become. i cant even start conversation without it dieing instantly. i what we have become. what happened to friends forever? what ever happened to no matter what we will never part? well. we have and i hate it. i want how we were back, i want how we used to feel about each other back. i want you back. i miss what we used to be. do you remember when people would compare us like we were twins? do you remember when we could laugh for hours about nothing. its all gone now. all we have left is a pitty smile when we walk past each other at school. i hate what we have become.

you said that was it?

you tell yourself that it wont happen again, that your not into that whole scene. quite clearly you are. you complain about your friends doing it. its not like you say no to it either. please think about it. is is really worth it? are you really going to have that much fun. your changing. and its not a good change.

Your lame friends,

so i get it. they don't like me. i get that they think its funny to say lame things about me and joke on my personal pages. i get that. i get that they are jealous and haven't taken the time to get to know me. i get that. but what i don't get is how you have put a stop to them? they are your 'friends'. It would be nice if you put your pride aside and protected me. you seem to protect them when i have something to say about them? so why cant you do the same for. me. Is it because you are afraid that they will start being dicks to you too? or maybe its because you don' t want to fight with them. well how about, you stick up for me and realise, they are not friends! why do you waste your time trying to impress them and never be off side with them? lets see if you can, for once, see my point of view and care enough to do something about it.

make a wish

happy days

Ive been so much happier lately. i don't know if its the summer breeze or the fact that my summer is just starting. but broken friendships have been repaired and weak friendships have become stronger. i have fallen more in love with him and we are happier than ever. i don't want this feeling to go away.

i think theres more to you

than what you let on. kinda sucks butt.

YOU HAVEN'T FUCKING DONE ANYTHING! IF YOU HAD I WOULD TELL YOU! SO LEAVE ME ALONE. im not in the mood for your bullshit. 

mask

leave the mask behind. we can see through it. you aren't fooling anyone. i beg you, just put it down, let us see you for you.  let us see your beautiful smile, let us see your eyes that are holding so much pain. You cant change who you are, so stop trying to hide behind your falseness.

shooting stars.

i had dream last night that you came back to me. please do?

lifey lifey lifey

life is a funny thing. one minute you feel as though you are on top of the world, next minute you are contemplating why you are even still here? if I've learnt anything about life, it is that when you smile and look at the positives, its actually ok. you actually enjoy yourself, the longer you dwell in the 'what could have beens' and the 'cant believe i did thats'  the longer you see life as worthless. so live life, laugh with your friends, cry when you need to but most of all love life and live it with a content heart.

could you marry me or something?

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i should probably delete that song. 

because sometimes we have to lose ourselves completely to truly find who we are. we have to dig deep and look hard into our souls, to find what really is in our hearts. and when you look into her eyes, you will see she is trying so hard to find who she is, to find who she wants to be. she would do anything to get him back, even though she knows its impossible, she still dreams. And every night when she cries herself to sleep and all she wants to do is let go and never wake up, she thinks of why she is still here, why she hasn't pulled the trigger. because sometimes while your looking for yourself you don't realize but you have been yourself the whole time, you just needed some reassurance.       

you are beautiful.

a thing called love

so, ive found myself head over heals in love with you. even when it feel like we are falling out of love, we are falling more in love. i never knew i could trust someone so much, i never knew that someone could make me so entirely happy. You are the reason i smile, and i know it sounds cheesy and super lame, but i really do feel this way for you.All the little things you do remind me of why i love you, like how you love to put your nose in the crease of my neck, and how you think i cant see you watching me. i cant wait to have a family and be married to you, then my life will truly be complete. i cant imagine me without you. thank you for putting up with all my shit and believing in me when no one else did. thank you for never letting me go and fighting for me when i just want to be left alone. thank you for breaking down my walls and ensuring me that everything is going to be ok, because without you, it wouldn't be. The reality is, even when im not trying, i catch myself thinking of you, thinking about your smile and laugh. please promise me that you will never let me go? please promise that we will share this bond forever?

time of the year

you leave us tomorrow. its the end of your schooling life and your going on the do bigger and better things. i will miss you so much. please think of us when you are away.

dumb,stupid,lame

as you can see. we are pretty sexy ;)

cupycakes,

thank you for my cupcake. you made my day.

our love

nothing could mean more to me.

you

i wish that you would see how beautiful you are. how you shouldn't need to impress boys to be seen? you have an amazing personality and behind that 'smile' i know you are dying inside. take a breath, sit down, remember who you are for a while, because no one does you better than you.

yeah you, you beautiful girl

i cant remember when i first met you. but i do remember all the memories we have had together. you understand me and  i can trust you. you are like sunshine when you laugh, its an honor to be in your presence. i love you.

Nana,

someday it would be nice to hear your voice again. i miss it. someday it would be nice to feel your warmth again. i miss that too. but most of all i miss your laugh, your smile you kiss on my head. its hard because day by day i start to forget the feelings, i forget what it was like, and i don't want to. i just want you to come back. back to where you belong. here. with me. i think of you everyday. i miss you everyday. it hurts because i cant change a damn thing. i love you nana. i always will.

being dicks

is the best therapy in the world. ;)

having a bad day?

the simple thing to do, just laugh it off.

when i can't find you. i close my eyes and hope you will find me. 

today

was a good day.

dear best friend,

its been five years. not once have you ever let me down. you are my sister i never had. i can tell you everything, every detail about myself and know that you would never judge me. you know me better than i know myself. we are going to die old together and no matter what, even when you don't want me to, i will love you.

my smile.

did you realize that the only reason i am still holding on, is because of you. never would would i have known how much of an impact you would have on me.  i adore. you. no words do you justice.