now when we see each other. all we have to talk about is someone else. it never used to be like that. its almost like we have to bitch about someone else to make the conversation less awkward. i hate what we have become. i cant even start conversation without it dieing instantly. i what we have become. what happened to friends forever? what ever happened to no matter what we will never part? well. we have and i hate it. i want how we were back, i want how we used to feel about each other back. i want you back. i miss what we used to be. do you remember when people would compare us like we were twins? do you remember when we could laugh for hours about nothing. its all gone now. all we have left is a pitty smile when we walk past each other at school. i hate what we have become.
you tell yourself that it wont happen again, that your not into that whole scene. quite clearly you are. you complain about your friends doing it. its not like you say no to it either. please think about it. is is really worth it? are you really going to have that much fun. your changing. and its not a good change.
so i get it. they don't like me. i get that they think its funny to say lame things about me and joke on my personal pages. i get that. i get that they are jealous and haven't taken the time to get to know me. i get that. but what i don't get is how you have put a stop to them? they are your 'friends'. It would be nice if you put your pride aside and protected me. you seem to protect them when i have something to say about them? so why cant you do the same for. me. Is it because you are afraid that they will start being dicks to you too? or maybe its because you don' t want to fight with them. well how about, you stick up for me and realise, they are not friends! why do you waste your time trying to impress them and never be off side with them? lets see if you can, for once, see my point of view and care enough to do something about it.
Ive been so much happier lately. i don't know if its the summer breeze or the fact that my summer is just starting. but broken friendships have been repaired and weak friendships have become stronger. i have fallen more in love with him and we are happier than ever. i don't want this feeling to go away.