because sometimes we have to lose ourselves completely to truly find who we are. we have to dig deep and look hard into our souls, to find what really is in our hearts. and when you look into her eyes, you will see she is trying so hard to find who she is, to find who she wants to be. she would do anything to get him back, even though she knows its impossible, she still dreams. And every night when she cries herself to sleep and all she wants to do is let go and never wake up, she thinks of why she is still here, why she hasn't pulled the trigger. because sometimes while your looking for yourself you don't realize but you have been yourself the whole time, you just needed some reassurance.