leave the mask behind. we can see through it. you aren't fooling anyone. i beg you, just put it down, let us see you for you. let us see your beautiful smile, let us see your eyes that are holding so much pain. You cant change who you are, so stop trying to hide behind your falseness.
life is a funny thing. one minute you feel as though you are on top of the world, next minute you are contemplating why you are even still here? if I've learnt anything about life, it is that when you smile and look at the positives, its actually ok. you actually enjoy yourself, the longer you dwell in the 'what could have beens' and the 'cant believe i did thats' the longer you see life as worthless. so live life, laugh with your friends, cry when you need to but most of all love life and live it with a content heart.